Spirit I love you baby sister ,you to baby brother.
Don't cry even though you wanna
, as I am writing this I think about you and all the pain your going though just how mommy died .
I wouldn't blamed you if you hate me .
Just promise me one thing,
Don't cry keep your chin up never down ,and please for give me.
I didn't mean to ,but I did I am so sorry ,but I love you so don't ever give that a second thought.
I am always there no matter what I'll be right there never far ,never forget that .
Please don't be mad I didn't mean to ,but I did .
I wish I can just stop all this cutting and drinking and smoking .
I know you watched me do it and I know I didn't mean to ,but you where there when it happened then big sister wasn't there
I was gone you didn't know where I was in till I can home high as hell .
I promised you the world ,And I would stop this crazy stuff, but I broke so many promises like that one where I would stop all this fighting and drug use and cutting.
I broke that and you both cried ,but I promise you one thing and to this day I wont break it
and that is I love you two and there is nothing in the world that would stop that.
I will not break this promise to you .
Big sister is here please don't cry I want to see smile though I know you wanna cry.
I know I am here and you are there , but big sister is here just don't cry.
I am doing my best everyday , all day
to change for you
when I hear your voice I tear and I cry.
I feel incomplete for once
we need someone to lean on and you needed me, but I was not there
me your big sister
your role model
that is a lie
I am not a role model but I am trying to be
I know your cry because I am gone , I cry as well
when I went to start life again I was sad and I thought I couldn't do it.
Know I now I can and that is what I am doing as I speak
I love you baby sister
I love you to baby brother
always and forever.