I was always the strong type
I never took the crap that you given me
So I sit here and cry
over you
Foolishly in love with someone who could care less about me
But yet I still love you
I know ill always be in the dark though always
As we walk through the park I cant look at you while tears rush down my face

I know you see it I know you feel it
I know you know what you do to me
Yet your my first everything and sometimes I wish...

Well never mind
"I'll change"
-"you will"
"yes I promise"
Now I laugh at the fact that you probably said that over fifty times
I believed you!!
Than I start to cry, scream yell how could you do this to me.
Than I call the boystown national hotline....its not like you were ever there for me..

I given up so much of myself I dont know who I am anymore
I promised myself that I wouldnt fall for you.
But I did I got the strength enough to leave after 9 months of misery..
but your back now a week later telling me
"How can you let us go"
-"cause i can its been 9 months and no change"
Hopefully I can stick to the plan this time
because I know if I ever go back to the likes of you I wont get what God has in store for me
love disgusts me right about now and the thought of you makes me sick
its funny how mama use to tell me when a guy treats you bad it means he likes you, didnt we all grow up with that theory....standing on this pile of horse s*** with the story of cinderella over the years
because the one for me isnt you...
but its hard to believe my first love
would do this to me.....