it scared me today when
we heard the ambulances screaming
and you said it wouldn’t be long until they came for you

i dared to remember how you promised me you’d stop
then took it back days later
i can’t save you just by saying how much you mean
but maybe if i maneuvered my lips in other ways
i can kiss the blood back into your veins and seal them shut
for good

maybe then i could keep you safe
and you could keep me happy
and we could keep each other warm
arms wrapped around empty promises and broken dreams
lips desperately attempting to make up for lost time
wrists numb and throbbing
hearts and minds turned off
for good.