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Digging in Yellowed Pages

August 5, 2011
By divingforreality GOLD, Fontana, California
divingforreality GOLD, Fontana, California
10 articles 7 photos 18 comments

I don’t get what I’m breathing.
Is it air? Or something thicker?

It's time to designate a new focus.
It's time to designate a new love.

These books. These pages.
Let me drown in them.
And let take place this thick vacuum of gas.

The dusty scent of the pages,
Let them suffocate and take me into a different world.

Just for now.
Just for this short time.

And let them improve my being and my intellect.

That's all I have to chant for. That's all I can do.

Meditating and sleep are out the window as I try to immerse myself to become a different being.
A different character.

My mediocre attempts at life are feeble and meaningless,
And even with these thoughts gradually being stuffed back into the back of my mind,
It's all I can do before I lash out.

I should take what they are and make them me.
I will be cunning.
I will be brave.
I will be strong.
I will be comical.
I will be dirty.
I will be magical.

Perhaps, even with my indubitable fate,
I can pull through and make it mighty worthy of being recorded into the recycled pages of the stories I read now.
I honestly hope so.

But right now,
The first thing,
And only thing,
I can do is avoid my own throat and chest.

Right now,
I need to find new air to breathe.

Back to the books they call fiction.
Back to breathing in their realities...

The author's comments:
There is no melody that goes along with this. It's pretty much self-explanatory to my goals right now. It started off as a blog then I found it poetic in my current state of mind.

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This article has 12 comments.

on Aug. 24 2011 at 5:07 am
blitsnik SILVER, Palm Bay, Florida
8 articles 0 photos 51 comments

Favorite Quote:
"If you must mount the gallows, give a coin to the headman, a jest to the crowd, and meet the drop with a smile on your lips."

Oh, this is great! I love the last stanza, about breathing in the realities of fiction, because sometimes, fiction is more real than what you see in real life. good job!

on Aug. 24 2011 at 12:01 am
SecretFlame PLATINUM, Portland, Oregon
20 articles 1 photo 373 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I have a life. I just choose to ignore it."
-one of my friends

This is fantastic. This poem made me feel, it's poetic, deep, and amazingly descriptive. Each word seemed perfect and yet like it all flowed out. You made an impact on my mind with this poem, I am still untangling it from my own thoughts. Wonderful! The rhythm was especially beautiful.

Mystiecub said...
on Aug. 22 2011 at 12:21 pm
This is really well written :D good job

Bambi67 SILVER said...
on Aug. 22 2011 at 11:27 am
Bambi67 SILVER, Chicago, Illinois
9 articles 1 photo 58 comments

Favorite Quote:
remember that the future comes one day at a time.
Dean Acheson

very  nice!!keep writing=)

on Aug. 21 2011 at 10:59 pm
BetweenWorks SILVER, Charlotte, North Carolina
5 articles 0 photos 60 comments

Favorite Quote:
The meaning of life is a question that you have already answered.

This was pretty good. This almost sounds like a short story.

on Aug. 21 2011 at 10:50 pm
PhoenixCrossing GOLD, Tinley Park, Illinois
14 articles 0 photos 178 comments
This is really creative. I like the format and your use of punctuation!

on Aug. 20 2011 at 6:29 pm
writing.is.my.life. SILVER, Newburgh, New York
7 articles 0 photos 29 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13

"Perspective is a lovely hand to hold." -Matthew Thiessen

ok. I must say that I love this poem. I can really relate to it. Keep up the good work!! :)

on Aug. 20 2011 at 3:39 pm
Hazel-daisy GOLD, --, Other
19 articles 0 photos 324 comments

Favorite Quote:
It takes a lot of courage to show your dreams to someone else - Erna Bombeck

In three words i can sum up everything I've learned in life: it goes on -Robert Frost

Live, Love, Laugh - ______

Hope, Love, breathe <3 - Me

i reallly like it, its quite orginial!

on Aug. 20 2011 at 10:57 am
Jessi_suarez1 GOLD, Kissimmee, Florida
16 articles 0 photos 98 comments
it was pretty good ! job well done !

leafy said...
on Aug. 20 2011 at 9:12 am
leafy, City, Other
0 articles 0 photos 682 comments

Favorite Quote:
Gil: I would like you to read my novel and get your opinion. 
Ernest Hemingway: I hate it. 
Gil: You haven't even read it yet. 
Ernest Hemingway: If it's bad, I'll hate it. If it's good, then I'll be envious and hate it even more. You don't want the opinion of another writer. 

nice job, it was well written and had a unique flow to it. keep up the good work!

on Aug. 16 2011 at 9:18 pm
musicispassion PLATINUM, Perris, California
35 articles 0 photos 733 comments

Favorite Quote:
" Life is never easy for those who dream."
There are so many other quotes i need pages to write them

great job i liked eit keep writing :P

on Aug. 16 2011 at 2:15 pm
Kev-Girl SILVER, Plymouth, Indiana
5 articles 0 photos 86 comments

Favorite Quote:
Life is a maybe. Death is for sure. Sin is the cause. Christ is the cure. :)

Love is the breath of God, and prayer is the melody that makes it sing.

If you cant annoy someone, there's no point in writing.

Love is overrated, marry for money.

hey i realy liked this! good job! looking forward to reading some of your other stuff!