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Why Do I Feel So Alone

August 31, 2011
By Anyalisse PLATINUM, Gering, Nebraska
Anyalisse PLATINUM, Gering, Nebraska
37 articles 7 photos 11 comments

So many people,
Pushing in,
Surrounding,
Suffocating.
rape,
Murder,
Divorce,
Suicide.
How can this be a joke?
How can you all laugh,
And smile,
At that?
It's not petty.
Don't say that,
Please.
Why?
Why are you all so heartless?
No heart,
No feeling.
Cold,
Ice,
Ice cold.
This air feels thick.
Heavy.
I don't understand.
Surrounded by so many people,
And I feel so,
Alone.
Pray to God.
Beg for help.
Plead and cry,
Inside my head.
Silence.
Only the maddening,
Silence.
It's too quiet!
Stop laughing,
Please.....
Stop.
All these people.
Crosses looming everywhere.
Churches.
People.
All these people.
All those steeples.
All of the voices,
And whispered prayers.
If I'm surrounded by people,
And God is everywhere,
And everything.
Then....
Why do I feel so,
Alone?


The author's comments:
I really don't understand how on earth people can joke about the horrible things in this world. It's not funny at all, but they don't see that because they have no idea what it feels like. Never had one of those situations before their very eyes.
I look to my church. The poeple that profess to be brothers and sisters in Christ, a family, for help. They push me away as well. I hear nothing from anyone. Christians are supposed to reach out to those in need, at least that's what I keep hearing. But whenever they look at me.....all they see is the scars. I don't want to be alone. But why won't anyone help me when I fall or be there when I cry? That's humanity right there. Jugemental and looking out for number one. That's all humanity will ever be. Selfish.

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