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Devastating Divorce

November 11, 2011
By raebaybay90 GOLD, Point Pleasant, New Jersey
raebaybay90 GOLD, Point Pleasant, New Jersey
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NO BODY GETS ME. I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO READ MY MIND. I WANT A TRUE FRIEND THAT KNOWS ME BEST BUT THAT IS SO HARD TO FIND. IVE LEARNED NOT TO DEPEND ON ANYONE. I LIKE JUST BEING ME. I DONT NEED ANYONE ELSE IN MY WAY BUT I NEED SOMEONE ELSE TO SEE: THAT I AM AN AMAZING PERSON. IM STRONG CARING AND SMART. IM VERY CREATIVE EVERYDAY AND HAVE THE BIGGEST HEART. I WANT TO HAVE SOMEONE LOVE ME FOR ME, AND NOT HAVE A WORRY IN THE WORLD. I WANT TO BE THE BEST I CAN BE AND ALWAYS JUST BE HAPPY. BUT THERES NO POINT TO RELATIONSHIPS. 1 OUT OF 2 JUST END IN HATE. ITS NOT FAIR HAPPINESS ALWAYS COMES TO AN END AND LOGICALLY CANT BE PART OF THEIR FATE. BECAUSE DOESNT GOD WANT EVERYONE TO BE HAPPY? MAYBE HE THINKS THAT WILL THAT BEING SAD WILL MAKE THEM STRONGER. BUT WHEN I SEE MY PARENTS FAR APART I THINK ID RATHER HAVE THEM TOGETHER. NOT IN THE CIRCUMSTANCES RIGHT NOW, BUT MAYBE IN A PAST LIFE. I WISH MY FATHER WAS A BETTER PERSON AND TOOK BACK MY MOM AS HIS WIFE. SEE, WHEN YOU SPLIT UP WITH A SPOUSE IT AFFECTS THE REST OF THE FAMILY. BESIDES YOUR OWN EMOTIONS, NO ONE ELSE IS HAPPY. YOU MAY THINK THAT ITS THE BEST THING TO DO, AND THINK YOU’LL FIND SOMEONE BETTER. BUT THE CHILDREN INVOLVED WILL NEVER FORGET HOW YOU TURNED AWAY THEIR FATHER. ABOUT HOW MANY NIGHTS HE CRIED TO THEM, AND TOLD THEM ABOUT HIS PROBLEMS. ABOUT HOW MANY NIGHTS THE CHILDREN STAYED UP NOT KNOWING WHY HES BOTHERED. CHILDREN THAT GO THROUGH THIS OFTEN TIMES BECOME MORE MATURE, AND RECOGNIZE WHAT IS REALLY HAPPENING. THEY KNOW WHY THEIR MOMMY IS LEAVING THE HOUSE AND EVERYTHING AFTER THAT STARTS TO STING. YOUR SENSE OF DIRECTION STARTS TO CHANGE. YOURE NOT A KID ANYMORE. YOU MAY BE PHYSICALLY INNOCENT AND NAIEVE BUT INSIDE YOUR LIKE THE OPEN SHORE. EVERYTHING AROUND YOU IS BEING SUCKED INSIDE. EVERY FIGHT AND EVERY CURSE. WHEN ARMS ARE LIFTED AND PEOPLE ARE HURT EVERYTHING STARTS TO GET WORSE. YOUR SENSES START TO NOTICE MORE AND EVERYDAY JUST FEELS LIKE THERE’S NO END. WHATS THE POINT IN LIFE ITSELF IF YOUR HEART CAN NOT BE MEND? MOST PEOPLE HAVE HAD THEIR HEART BROKEN BECAUSE OF A BOY OR GIRLFRIEND. AND THE WORST PAIN OF ALL IS ONE THAT IS OFTEN MISAPPREHENDED. BECAUSE WHEN SOMEONE THAT IS SUPPOSED TO PROTECT YOU, AND SHEILD YOU FROM ALL THE BAD. SPLITS UP YOUR ENTIRE FAMILY, SO THERES NO TOGETHER MOM AND DAD. NO HOLIDAYS TOGETHER, NO SMILING GOOD MORNING. INSTEAD OF ALL THE KIDS WAITING FOR DAD TO COME HOME FROM WORK YOU HAVE TO GO TO HIS HOUSE JUST TO HAVE YOUR MOM GIVE YOU A WARNING. “DON’T EXPECT TOO MUCH FROM HIM, THATS HOW I GOT HURT. I DONT WANT YOU ENDING UP LIKE ME, AND BEING PUSHED IN THE DIRT”. AND YOU’RE THINKING TO YOURSELF HOW COULD MY MOTHER BE SO BLIND. BOTH OF THEIR SELFISHNESS HAS MADE MY LIFE UNWIND. I JUST WANT TO SCREAM AT NIGHT, AND GET LOST IN THE MUSIC. EVERY TIME I THINK ABOUT WHAT THEY’VE DONE I JUST FEEL SO SICK. AND THATS WHY IM BETTER ALONE. THATS WHY I’D RATHER NOT EVEN TRY. RELATIONSHIPS ARE POINTLESS AND ASK FIFTY PERCENT OF AMERICA THE REASONS WHY. PEOPLE ALWAYS GET HURT, FROM THE ONES THEY LOVE THE MOST. THATS WHY ITS BETTER TO NOT BE DEPENDENT ON ANYONE AND ITS OK IF YOU BURN YOUR TOAST. BECAUSE ITS BETTER TO LEARN FROM YOUR OWN MISTAKES, THEN HAVE TO DEAL WITH SOMEONE ELSE’S. EVERYTHING AFFECTS A PERSON’S LIFE AND THERE ARE NO HAPPY ENDINGS.



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