That darkness
Weighting against
my soul
has in one way been let go
or at least trying to
Not only for them
But for me too
My bleeding desire
Is fading
Yet growing
Fading for I know
I am beautiful
Inside and out
Glowing with a light
To break free
From my darkness
But growing,
Growing with the
Lies, hurt, sorrow, pain
Anger, loss of trust
The brokenness of my heart
And my shattered soul
Trying to fix this mess
Slowly, not knowing
Where to start
No trust
Losing them all
Left alone
Or is it I who isolates myself?
Hiding all of my
Darkness
But it slowly creeps out
Bleeding onto everything
Else surrounding me
Where is my glow
Smile, joy trust?
Gone into eternity?
My heart in the hands of others
Fighting for it
I want it back
To stop spiraling
Out of control
Into my own
Selfish darkness
Fighting a battle
Within myself
Seemingly alone
Forever
But I know
I know He is there
Trying to tear
The darkness away