Something is still missing in my life
I don't know what
But
I feel a lot better
My light from my halo is still gone
But I shouldn't wallow in self-pity.
I want to know what's missing!
But I guess I must go out and find it
Ugh I don't want to
I finally find after they left me.
What if I lose myself in the process?
How do I regain all the pieces?
I CAN'T do it again
It took me half a year
To find Ashanti.
I started looking in 2010.
It's 2012.
It took me 2 years to feel like that girl I once was.
I feel different but in a good way.
I can't lose that feeling.
Sometimes I wish my self gone
Not dead BUT on vacation
No people, no drama, no responsibility
Just me, myself and I
I pray my thoughts don't discourage me
How long will this good feeling last?
I hope it never goes away