and it’s the choking

on water when
lungs just collapse—
THEY JUST COLLAPSE—
and it’s crazy
veins popping


head aching

screaming
don’t you know don’t you know

DON’T YOU KNOW?
and Love,
I don’t, because

I spent six long years

—the six l.o.n.g.e.s.t years of my life—



DROWNING
my brain in my sorrows and my god

I’m such a stereotype,
don’t you know

DON’T YOU KNOW?
listenlistenlisten because THIS IS


LOVE,
darling, listen to me, this is love
and it’s that under the water

I am
B e a u t i f u l,



Don’t you know?
I am beautiful under the water
because under the water I do
not understand
because
because
because
h a t e doesn’t

hate doesn’t
HATE DOESN’T EXIST.

listenlistenlisten
I do not understand because
I can’t hear
hate

Because under the water
hate

is just a word

(It’s just a word!)
and I can’t hear hate—words don’t exist,


they don’t exist under the water.
u.n.d.e.r
t.h.e

w.a.t.e.r
i am beautiful, love, i am beautiful.