I wonder what the after life looks like. I wonder is is crowded, will I finally be seen by others or another disappointment. When I look at you and I truly see you. You bring me joy, not pain, but you're at the edge of the earth. I'm trying to hold you I'm begging you to breathe and to not let go...but you're out of reach. So then I grab at the dirt of the earth leeching holding on to life. I try so hard not to cry, I see you giving up but i scream and you can't hear me I'm blinking twice. I soon open my eyes and there you are standing before me I can feel you now and I can feel now your at ease presence this is the never ending present its today or never. I love you