I feel bad critiquing because this feels so honest. Please know that I do not mean to judge you, but to only help you portray your feelings better. In the words of Kyo from Fruits Basket, "It's okay to complain a little sometimes! If we don't know that something is wrong, how can we help you fix it?" Feel free to say something is wrong; I want to help you say that something is wrong :) There are a few typos in this. That is pretty easy to fix, though- it's just a few missing letters or spaces. You have some great images in this - I really like the being dead to your heart image. Expand on the being unable to remember the words you said. Are they to someone else? How did those words affect how you feel now? Use details to sew your feelings together. There is a lot of depth to this poem, and you truly did a good job on it. Sending hugs and prayers, and feel free to find someone to tell them what is going on.