In my moments of peace
Where the world is a black film painted over my eyes
Blinding
And I fall into the abyss
Soundlessly deeper … and deeper
I wonder
How did I end up in this situation
Wonder – why I do not scream all the way to the bottom
What have you done to me?
My body twists and contorts
In the spasms of possession

My life is a video game
I am your avatar
Move me. Control me.
Do not press pause
Because I’ll fall
Soundlessly deeper … and deeper
What have you done to me?
I want you to touch me
Whisper my name
I beg you
Or don’t

Destroy my pride
Unchain my sanity
But let me savor the pleasure
Of your every word
And with you I fall
Soundlessly deeper … and deeper
I wonder
What have you done to me?