I know I shouldn't count on it
I shouldn't put all my faith into this
I've learned not to put my faith into something that could change
But I can't help it
I can't help the way I feel
I can't keep holding everything in
It feels so good to let it out
And it feels even better to know I'm not wasting my breath
Cause you actually care
I've always made sure I didn't get attached
I made sure that if someone left, I'd still be okay
But I can't help it
With you every sense I've ever had just leaves
And that scares me
I've always known what I want
Always known what to do and where to go
I've always been in control
But I'm not in control without you
When you leave I lose everything
I lose my strength
My courage
My confidence
My happiness
I lose all sense of who I am
I shouldn't depend on you to live
I shouldn't depend on you to be happy
But I just can't help it
Everything about you is wonderful
But the way you make me feel scares me
Because I just can't think straight
None of it makes sense
And that's all I've ever known
Known how to be brave
Be responsible
Be independent
Be reasonable
Be realistic
But nothing about you is realistic in my head
Everything you are is just a fairytale
A book I read when I'm bored
A movie I want to watch to cry
Something that just can't come true
But I can't help it
I love you