I am on the threshold
I can just sense myself
lying on a soft surface
many people stand around
I don’t know who they are
but I can feel their love towards me
the other part of me
is slipping
into a warm glow
I want to go and dive
into the happiness
and release my grip
not have to struggle
any more.


Something holds me back
I feel your large rough hand
callused with work of love
gently hold my weakened arm
the arm that used to sew
to wash
to care for
and now lies
almost lifeless in your hands
I know you are supposed to be here
your glow feels right
you start to talk
softly to me
I regain a little more of my hold
I can see you now
it is more then just a sense
I stare into your eyes
your gently wrinkled face
from all the times
you smiled at me
I know you love me
you hold me tight
not wanting to let go of my life
or is it your life
that is not wanting
to let go of what you knew?
Tears drop
from your eyes
I want to reach out
to touch
and comfort you
as I used to do
but I am immobile.

I start to slip again
and you turn into my angel
I smile
I smile at you
for all your love
all your caring and encouragement
then I whisper
I will always love you
even when I’m gone
then I slip
all the way
into the warmth
into the freeness
I feel myself float
above all
then I am on the sea
again
but this time
not on my boat
but on wings.