I look in your eyes
for what I need most
compassion
understanding
support

but instead they read
"I don't care
that's stupid
what's wrong with you
who would do something like that
why do you talk to her
you're just a child
but you never know
half the story
about the people
I love

you don't know
she is diagnosed
depressive
and bipolar
and her mom
can be abusive
and that she feels
like she is going to die
at least once a week
during her panic attack
that she tries to hide
and that he used her
for a stupid joke
that made her cry
and that you thought
was hilarious

you don't know
that I had to call
social services
with another girl
and that I carried
brown paper bags with me
because she too
stopped breathing
during class
out of fear of her mom

you don't know
that I have seen slits
that I know couldn't
have been an accident
on two of the people
I love most in the world

you don't know
that all of this
scares me
because I AM a child
and my happiness
is their happiness
and they are
deeply unhappy
and that I have to
be there for them
because not many people are

and you don't know
that I want to think
that I don't give a f***
about your opinions
and you don't know
that I do

that's why
your icy eyes
make mine
melt into
tears