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Dear Depresion

October 20, 2014
By the_truth_about_me SILVER, Cambridge, Massachusetts
the_truth_about_me SILVER, Cambridge, Massachusetts
6 articles 0 photos 5 comments

Dear Depression,

I am sorry,
I am sorry for leaving you
After so long
You made me feel safe
Like you were the only one who would protect me
You made me believe that everyone else was dangerous
And shouldn't be trusted
You made me believe you were the only one there
The only thing that kept me living
You made me believe that without you I was nothing
That without you I should not be living
As everyone started to try and get me to push you away
You made me believe that they were all just trying to kill me
Kill the only thing I had left
I wanted to follow you
Follow you out my bedroom window
While everyone else was asleep
You made me want to die with you
Soon all I could think of was the belt in my closet that grew to small for my waist
But the perfect size for my neck
I needed you
You coated me with your fog
A fog so thick I could no longer see myself without you threw it
I am sorry,
Sorry for letting myself trust you for so long
Letting myself believe the lies you whispered to me
I am sorry for not abandoning you sooner
Leaving you in my dust
I am sorry for taking so long to find myself
I left you behind
Replacing you with the joy I can now feel
The joy I let myself feel
I forced you down
Soon you will see what great accomplishments I can make
See the motivation bubbling up inside me
I want to say thank you
For teaching me how great it is to feel alive
To want to be alive
To realize a world without you
I am sorry
For letting you stick around for so long.

One of your many survivors

The author's comments:

If anyone reading this is going through depresion, I want you to know that it is not over.

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on Jan. 18 2016 at 6:39 pm
Eliana96 SILVER, Tenafly, New Jersey
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this is incredible. you are extremely talented

on Oct. 27 2014 at 8:52 pm
ImmortalRose GOLD, Arvada, Colorado
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Favorite Quote:
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This is great, I totally get the feel! Like when you are so depressed you feel it is your identity?

on Oct. 26 2014 at 8:57 pm
the_truth_about_me SILVER, Cambridge, Massachusetts
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I am so glad you enjoyed this, I was recently going through a deep depresion, while I was going through it I felt so hopeless. I wrote this poem to give hope.

on Oct. 24 2014 at 8:17 pm
Olivia-Atlet ELITE, Dardenne Prairie, Missouri
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Favorite Quote:
"To these the past hath its phantoms,
More real than solid earth;
And to these death does not mean decay,
But only another birth"
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This... actually made me cry, so Great job! *\^_^/*  I am still going through depression, and I have been for 5 years now, so this hits home. You are extremely great at speaking fluently and getting to the readers emotion, which is a hard skill to master :) Thanks so much for sharing this, you have no idea what it does to me. CX