This all just hurts too much.

but see, youre fine.

Thats the funny thing. you can go on with life feeling unaffected.

I cant.

and wanna know why?

I got too attached.

I gave you my trust and I believed that you werent going to hurt me again.

But you lied to me.

You broke me.

You sewed me back together and then broke me.

I thought you would be different.

You told me to give you a chance.

So I did.

But you blew it.

I know I send you a message or two everyday.

Thats because I dont know how to deal with everything.

I tell myself everyday that this is just some dream and I'll wake up to everything being fine.

I go to sleep for an hour, wake up, and its all the same.

You meant so much to me.

And I thought I did to you.

Now I see that this was just another game.

You hit start and I did too.

I immediately pressed play the first time.

Like any other would.

But the second time?

I held my breath.

I thought things would last.

But now I see that I was blinded by what i thought was love but turned out to be a joke.