It's sad how I've fallen,

Fallen deep into the cracks

Buried underneath all these tempations

And it comes to show that I am now weak.

Weak of not being able to fight for myself anymore,

Weak of not staying true,

But also weak because I've let you down

Lord, I know I am a heavy sinner

And it feels like every time you call me

I always tend to never answer

You left countless voicemails on my phone

asking me to come back

And I just want to say that I am sorry

Sorry for being a Christian even though

my actions may be very sinful

I've tried to have that exact same image

But I guess it was never cut out for me

I've written these poems to explain all the

hardships that has never been crossed

I was once a lamb wandering along the fields

then suddenly, I'm lost

God, I silence my thoughts just so I could

hear your voice again

I close my eyes then open them right away

Because all I could ever hear is the laughter of the

enemy

He's constantly laughing in my face

As I sit in the corner so shameful and

unwanted

Not knowing my way of direction

Tells me that I have been defeated

But Lord I'm thankful that you've supplied me

with whatever I needed

I needed faith and love but even though my

walks may be crooked

I know your promises are from up above