I can feel the strength that I have kept for so long melting inside of me. What is left of it slides down the walls of my deteriorating body... what to do now is what I am asking. What are you supposed to do when getting back up is no longer an option? If I fall now I will stay down for good and this I know, I know so well, too well. Who was once always there is now so sick of putting up with me and with what I am. Who I am to blame those who do not want what I give, I do not want this either. I cannot stand this indecision. To do or to not do. Shall I choose to stand now I may never be able to move. What will be left of me when this strength finishes melting? All of these raw emotions have been chained and bottle up inside of me.... what was I thinking making strength its barrier? I feel them as they rattle the chains, whispering to me... they will soon be free I can feel it. Am I scared?