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The Wall Between Freedom And Fear

January 5, 2016
By adxastra PLATINUM, North Ogden, Utah
adxastra PLATINUM, North Ogden, Utah
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Favorite Quote:
"Even if you cant make the pancake you can still be the pancake. The pancake is inside of you."

-Gerard Way

A thought makes its way to the front of my mind:
Maybe they don't like me.
Texts left ignored and invites declined-
something too common with social anxiety.
The judgmental eyes dig beneath my skin;
making phone calls creates panic;
There is a need for friends but I won’t let them in
Confidence sinks like the Titanic.
Afraid of rejection and of being annoying-
like a wall between freedom and fear
the latter is where I am kept from enjoying
things I’d remember all year.
Every bit of laughter or tiny murmur
sends thoughts of dread through my brain.
My desire to stay in my room then grows firmer,
rather than risk bringing pain.
Conversations can be nice-
until they come to an end
It allows me time to stop and think twice
Maybe their interest was all just pretend...

The author's comments:

Ever since I was little, I've struggled with anxiety. one of the very few ways I'm able to get through it is by writing. I'm still developing my writing, but I hope some of you can relate to what I'm going through.

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Im_me. BRONZE said...
on Jan. 13 2016 at 3:35 pm
Im_me. BRONZE, Perry, Utah
3 articles 0 photos 4 comments

Favorite Quote:
All you need is twenty seconds of insane courage, and i promise you, something good will come of it.

This super great. I really like the way you put anxiety into words. Awesome job

many moons said...
on Jan. 13 2016 at 12:45 pm
@carpe noctem, you are brilliant. the center of attention is not always a good or desirable place to be! to be without fear, face the fear and "dare" yourself to do something terrifying.