I remember staring at her face 

She was smiling 

And her hair glistened red 

In the hot sun 

I remember listening 

To her musical laugh

When she laughed 

At all of my lame jokes 

I remember watching her cry 

And staring at the bittersweet

Tear that came falling from her eyes

And I remember 

How in a blink 

Of my twelve year old eyes

It all faded away 

I remember coming home from school

Eavesdropping on my parents'

How they talked ever so lowly 

So we couldn't hear the, 

I remember staring at my siblings 

Wondering if they understood 

Because at first I did not 

I remember figuring it out 

And Screming 

Crying 
Fighting 

Hoping it was all a sick joke

I remember staring at her face 

Again 

She was still smiling 

Her hair still glistened in the light 

I remember hearing 

Deep in my mind 

Her beautiful laugh

I remember the tears 

That used to fall upon her cheeks

I remember it all 

The only thing 

I don't want to remember 

Is remembering her

Laying in a casket

Body cold, pale, lonesome

In a black and white lace dress

Her hair straight and limp

With a smile on her face 

That lied to us all 

And how quiet she was 

I don't want to remember 

How we lowered her into the ground

How we covered her up with dirt

And we pretended that she was no longer real

I want to remember everything about her

But I want to forget 

When she left me forever