Has someone ever hurt you so much that you don’t feel pain anymore?
I just realized how much I was affected by one person’s actions.
I was weak, I let my guard down, and it happened.
His actions may seem small and annoying to normal happy people.
But I saw a wave turn into a tsunami as I struggled to get out of my crazy head.
I choked and almost drowned.
I could’ve ignored everything.
I could’ve not talked about.
But he caught me in a weak state.
And I almost fell
Night after night I thought about taking my life
To show how much I was hurting
I couldn’t deal with it normally
I couldn’t think
But this is a mindset they all said
It’s you’re choice that you felt like this and acted the way you did
But my sickness is like any other
I couldn’t chose to have it
If I have cancer I can’t just simply choose to not have cancer
I have it and I’m dealing with it.
I forgave him.
I hope they learn from this and not hurt another damaged soul as they did to me
And I want to be happy
I want to close my eyes and know that I am alright
I don’t want to be in this storm anymore
So to the person that hurt me so much,
I’m sorry.
For who knows how much you are suffering
To have done that to me
I hope you will be happy and learn from your mistake
And thank you.
Thank you for letting me know to never let my guard down
And making me stronger.
Because without you
I would feel pain.