I want someone to miss me
when I am gone
When the waves of darkness
engulf me in their gentle arms.
I want someone to want me back
when I am gone
When it feels like sadness looks
Like an ocean before you
And you wait
Watching
Wishing
You had said something to
Make me feel
Wanted
Loved
Needed
Instead of
Unwanted
Unloved
Unneeded

Because I know
When I am gone
That you will be crying over my corpse
And I know
You will tell them
“We were best friends
Almost sisters”
Yet you said nothing to me
I was the fag
B****
Homo
Prick
Lost
Wishing
Dreamer
Useless
Suicidal freak

Who knew
Alone
Lonely
And
Lonesome
All had
One