I’m too scared,
When I’m with you it’s like I hit 5 years old all over again
And I’m in the dark with pee stained dora pajama pants
Because I had a bad dream.
I’m not scared of you physically
I’m scared of the stories I make up in my head
I think the worst of you,
And that’s not your fault or fair to you.
I’m scared one day you’ll stand up look me in the eyes
And simply say,”I don’t need you anymore”
Just like the rest of them did
But I can’t compare you to the rest of them
Because you've proved your different.
But they're also a part of me.
And so are you.
And they are the reason why I am the way I am.
And so are you.
On a saturday of december I spilled secrets that had been living in my bones aching to come out,to you.
My glimpse to you that I trust you at least a little more than others
But I’m still fearful
And I just wanna scream,”If your leaving me,just do it..”
And then mumble,”don’t make me wait ,it’ll hurt worse”
So hand me my eviction notice,
Because I made a home in your heart already,
And maybe my love wasn’t enough to pay the rent
So I guess I’ll have no choice but to sign my initials with a heart.
Even if I don’t necessarily want to