The lingering of his kiss doesn’t tingle as it should -

makes me wonder, so hopelessly, if it ever could.

The radiance of his touch doesn’t warm my lifeless skin…

makes me ponder, so sadly, if it could ever begin.

I cannot feel the love he gives me,

the emptiness of my heart, he cannot see.

I go through the motions with a restless premonition -

inside, wanting only to create a shattered fission…

The love that explodes from him implodes within me,

the power building inside only grows more and more -

but cannot be freed.

I exist, shrouded in darkness,

seeing something I cannot understand.

What is this love, have I felt it?

My beached soul remains heartless…

The sky within my eyes starless

the world around me colorless.

Should love not bring with it, color?

A galaxy? A completeness?

Not only am I drowning in nothing, I am stuck in it -

a whirlpool of desire that refuses to caress me.

I shouldn’t feel this way, I should react to his touch, his kiss,

everything.

Perhaps words cannot describe the way I feel for him

because this sadness – this emptiness

is wordless.

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An angel visited me once, her light radiant

as it shined upon my eyes, my soul, so vacant.

She told me each person is a moon or a planet, a part of something greater…

That those holes inside me? They were just craters.

We revolve around a pull, a ruthless force

Making us take its brutal course.

Love holds us together, you and I

but without it, we must die.

Craters are permanent, reminders of what we’ve done

the hole I’ve created inside you, can never be undone.

The lust, the feeling, the concept that clings to you

hasn’t given me its crowned bijou.

The force that pulls you runs away from me,

a game I fear shall be played for all eternity.

Your world collapses at the words coming from my lips

When I reach for you, graze do my fingertips…

As the force binding us together, so young and new

Snaps between us, sending our souls askew.

Perhaps in another world, my love, we shall find each other again

Until then, my dear, I pray you shall be relieved of your pain.

Goodbye, my friend, my world, my planet

This curse that beholds me, I damn it.