I wish I could tell him,
the words building in my heart waiting to burst through my chest.
For the fear of it breaking again would just be to much to handle,
like drowning in a ocean of cold dark water,
Its icy waves cling to me and pull me down deeper till my lungs burn and I cant open my eyes.
But,
Just the way you smile or the way you look me in the eyes and I feel perfectly fine.
But all the pain of the past keeps me from not telling him everything.....
all my thoughts, my fears,
my hopes,
and my dreams,
thats I wish I could just tell him,
but for now ill be the
shy quite
friendly girl
who he's friends that
he can talk about anything with ,
that he could just goof around with,
and maybe just maybe Ill tell him what's in my heart.