Please stop praising me just for my looks

I feel disgusted when you call me pretty

I’m ugly in every way possible

But this is just who I am,

I’m not that confident girl you thought I was

I was never that smiling girl I used to be

Growing up was difficult when everyone looked up to me

I was pressured because of my looks

I grew to hate myself as time passed

This thing called self-hate invaded my mind

Everyday becomes a battle against myself,

But I'm agreeing with it.  

Where did it all go?

The me I used to love

Turned into a gruesome sight

What has come over me?

“You’re hideous, why bother to look good,”

Day by day, I lost weight

“It doesn’t matter, you’re still an embarrassing sight.”

I have lost the look of a natural beauty

I despised the look in my eyes

This self-hate brainwashed my mind clean

Everyday becomes non-stop,

Yet, I don’t try to stop it

Why won’t it stop now?

When will it stop now?

What will stop it now?

Just Please Stop!!

The self-hatred inside of my mind slowly faded

I once again love who I was

Everyday is worth living on forward

And still, I don’t know why it stopped.