Every morning I wake up distressed
Do my hair then get dressed
I put on your makeup
And paint on a smile
Look to the mirror and think to myself
I cant do this today
I know things will not be okay
I’ll try my best to act happy
I’ll put on an act
As long as no one knows
That will be that

I’ll go to school with my fake smile and laugh with my friends
But deep inside I know my laugh isn’t a laugh
It’s a cry for help but no one is there to love and to care

I want to scream
I want to cry
I even really want to die
But that painted on smile tells me today isn’t my day to say goodbye

I get home from school
Not in the mood
I go right to the bathroom and take off my smile
I get into bed and think for a while
I start to realize that things may get better
If they don’t theres no good letting go
Even though….

I want to scream
I want to cry
I even really want to die
But my painted on smile tells me that today or next week even next fall
Is not my time to say good bye at all

I have a whole life ahead of me
And these speed bumps come at me rapidly
But no need to get so depressed
Because these speed bumps happen for the best

I want to scream
I want to cry
Why would I want to die
My painted on smile cracks because my real one is shining through

When I want to scream
When I want to cry
When I completely break down inside
I think of all the good things and the friends I have
That lifts me up and makes me feel like a god