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Dear Death

August 11, 2010
By Thesilentraven PLATINUM, Mableton, Georgia
Thesilentraven PLATINUM, Mableton, Georgia
40 articles 2 photos 1632 comments

Favorite Quote:
"il piu nell' uno," (according to Emerson, an Italian expression for beauty)

"Unable are the loved to die, for love is immortality" ~Emily Dickinson

"The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain"
~Kahlil Gibran

Dear Death,

Can you understand love? I seriously doubt that you can; because, if you could, you would have looked into my mother’s eyes when she had turned around to smile at me in the car that day. You would have seen what I had seen: the affection glowing in her hazel gaze and the joy that flitted across her lips. That blissful moment before terror.

You witnessed that love shining like a headlight in our midst, yet still you made our car swerve off the road. And you wrenched my mom and dad from life’s embrace. My embrace, even though I thought I was holding on tightly enough. Why did you take them cruelly in your arms, and stalk past my brother and I? We were in the car too! I’d rather be walking hand in hand with them (wherever you took them after that day) than be left in the dust of life.

When I woke up in the hospital the next obscure morning, white-coated figures told me that they were gone. Through my tears, I made a solemn vow. It was a vow to hate you for the rest of my life. Mom and Dad, gone? You don’t understand love.

Your newest enemy,

Dear Death,

It’s been a year since I last wrote you, and I have already broken my vow. You took Grandpa yesterday, but he was different. I loved Grandpa in a way that would bring tears to anybody’s eyes. He used to tell me fantasy stories, swearing that they were real. I’d say, “you’re crazy, Grandpa!” He would look really serious and say, “What? You think I’m crazy?” then smile and wink: “maybe a little bit.” He warmed my heart so much.

Cancer, supposedly, was the murderer. But I recognized your aura in the hospital when he called me in to talk. He told me that everything was okay, giving me a smile that I had come to know as my friend. He told me that everything was all right, that there was nothing to fear from you, that he was just moving on, that I would see him in time. His words consoled me, but I cried as he gave my hand a little squeeze. Then I saw his spirit floating like a veil out of the room. I could have sworn that it winked at me.

I broke my vow, because I forgive you.

With love,

Dear Death,

It has been four years since Grandpa died. My brother has had a really hard life (as have I, for that matter). I had often seen him in his room praying, with tears in his eyes, before he left home to get a job. I guess no one answered his prayers, because I was told this morning that he was found dead after having jumped from his apartment building. This time, I shed no tears. I am beyond that now, even though my big brother is gone.

Before Grandpa called me to his sickbed, I heard him saying to my brother with a smile “teach Rose all that you know after I’m gone.” He has done so, because I’m looking at the noose that I have tied for myself, a foot in front of me. I’m almost ready to walk into your arms, just like my family. Now I have just stepped up onto the chair…

I don’t know how these letters will reach you, but I hope they do.

I want you to see what you have done.

See you soon,

Dear Rose,

I want you to know that I have read and reread your letters; they were very beautiful. Silver tears line my worn face as I watch you swing slowly like a pendulum from the rope. I also want you to know this: I’m so sorry. But your brother, he had jumped; somebody had to catch him. But I know you loved him. Your grandpa, he shook my hand as I helped him from his deathbed; he knew that it was all okay. And I know that you loved him. As for your parents, I did see that look in your mother’s eyes; and I’m so sorry that she and your father had to leave with me. I know that you loved them. But I am the deliverer; some people must be left behind as I take the others with me.

I remember your first words to me. To answer, I do understand love. I have seen so much, how could I not? But I’m glad you wrote to me and that you will be joining the ones that you care about. I look into your tranquil face and think: this is not the end, Rose.

Your friend,

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This has to be one of the best things i have ever read. Great job!

on Nov. 4 2012 at 3:29 pm
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Wow! I love this! omg it is like so made me get teary-eyed! 5 star for sure!

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on Nov. 4 2012 at 3:27 pm
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Favorite Quote:
“Don’t walk in front of me, I may not follow. Don’t walk behind me, I may not lead. Walk beside me and be my friend.”

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This is deep and full of raw emotion.  I love the depth built into this and it captures you as soon as you read the first line. You have amazing talent, keep writing, I really do love this piece. :D

on Nov. 4 2012 at 11:54 am
Catthatbarks SILVER, Vancouver, Other
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it's beautiful. The idea is so simple, yet haunting.

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on Oct. 22 2012 at 7:48 am
keke_curry, Wilmington, North Carolina
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i like this because she's expressing her feelings towards her mother & brothers death 

skybean BRONZE said...
on Oct. 13 2012 at 10:09 am
skybean BRONZE, Elmont, New York
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Favorite Quote:
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Love it! Kinda chilling though...

on Oct. 13 2012 at 10:01 am
WriterGirl1197 SILVER, Hamden, Connecticut
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Wow! It was so deep and heart wrenching. Two thumbs up! 

on Sep. 25 2012 at 1:04 pm
casperwatson PLATINUM, West Hartford, Connecticut
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<3 it !!!  

on Sep. 25 2012 at 9:43 am
Emily_Greene GOLD, Spring Valley, California
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Today Teen Ink even posted an excerpt from this on their Facebook page. I'm really glad Raven is noticed this much.

on Sep. 24 2012 at 1:18 pm
marzapan PLATINUM, Westchester, Pennsylvania
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this was amazing, i loved it.

on Sep. 21 2012 at 10:43 pm
taylor_baby07 BRONZE, Manvel, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
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just amazing i loved it!!!

on Sep. 21 2012 at 9:45 pm
DanceOfBlades PLATINUM, Springfield, Virginia
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"Humankind cannot gain anything without first giving something in return. To obtain, something of equal value must be lost. That is alchemy's first Law of Equivalent Exchange."

I can't imagine what your inspiration was or just how you came about to write something so incredibly intricate and in depth with the meaning you've instilled into this piece. Chilled to the bone in its beauty.

on Sep. 21 2012 at 9:17 pm
Emily_Greene GOLD, Spring Valley, California
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Sad, moving, and creative. You made it sad but it wasn't in the cheesy way it's usually delivered with other writers. I ended up crying.

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on Sep. 21 2012 at 7:14 pm
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This was just beautiful!! Great job!! 

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on Sep. 21 2012 at 1:37 am
Ninz59 SILVER, Orland Park, Illinois
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gave me the chills. Loved it. You have talent. 

on Sep. 18 2012 at 7:51 am
foreverHope BRONZE, New Bedford, Massachusetts
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so deep! its an absolutely fantastic story. Its sad but thats what makes it great! comment on my stuff sometime. thanks!

Amoney said...
on Sep. 11 2012 at 8:35 am
Amoney, Wilmington, North Carolina
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This is a really good story, sad but amazing.

on Aug. 30 2012 at 5:31 pm
TickTockBANG SILVER, Botkins, Ohio
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Just... AH. AAAAH. This is amazing and has that sort of beautiful sadness.

on Aug. 30 2012 at 11:02 am
RaisaMiri SILVER, Bethel Park, Pennsylvania
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Nothing can compare to the beauty of this story <3 that was phenominal <3

on Aug. 30 2012 at 10:09 am
MarieAntoinette2014 DIAMOND, Scottsburg, Indiana
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That was amazing. That was so beautiful, and I love that Death gets to say his piece. That was phenomenal.