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If Only He Knew

March 19, 2010
By Anonymous

I could tell by the way he looked at me, standing at my side. The way he held eye contact a second longer than normal and how he constantly had that open eye expression I loved. A deer in hedlights, stunned by his own feelings. The way he lingered close by and how he went silent as I walked past; I knew. What I did not know however was how to react. I was an overly quiet girl who's favourite past time seemed to be blending into the walls and blushing at any mention of my name. He was the confident guy with more friends than I would have in a lifetime. I would never have the nerve to say a single word to a guy like him. I was seventeen years old and I had not even been kissed yet, for goodness sake!
I laughed outloud at my self pity. He look over at me puzzled.
"What?"he asks, turning to face me.
"Oh,nothing."I say, my face turning bright red.
What I really meant to say however, was kiss me now so I would know whether it was not the most amazing thing of my life. Just do it now. Let me drown in your deep blue eyes and whisper all my secrets I have been telling you mentally for the past two years. Just kiss me now. Do it before I realise the impossibility of it all.
I sigh and look down.
He looks over at me confused. Always the puzzled face.


The author's comments:
A true story.

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Jessie123 said...
on Apr. 2 2010 at 9:37 pm
Jessie123, Ann Arbor, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
"Always shoot for the moon, even if you miss you'll land among the stars."

That was quiteee amazing!! i wanna know what happens next!

Jessie123 said...
on Apr. 2 2010 at 9:36 pm
Jessie123, Ann Arbor, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
"Always shoot for the moon, even if you miss you'll land among the stars."

I completely agree with Laughternchoclate. That's ridiculous.

dani09 BRONZE said...
on Apr. 2 2010 at 7:31 pm
dani09 BRONZE, Winchester, Missouri
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Favorite Quote:
A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart, and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words

that was soooo good. i want you to continue!

on Mar. 30 2010 at 7:13 pm
unwrittenlove DIAMOND, Mount Berry, Georgia
61 articles 11 photos 153 comments

Favorite Quote:
"If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it dosent, then it was never meant to be" -anonymous

omigoodness. This was really good. I feel the same way about this guy and i even told him that i like him. he acted pretty cool about it which is surprising. haha (18 and never been kissed)

SageSin GOLD said...
on Mar. 30 2010 at 10:00 am
SageSin GOLD, Oaklawn, Illinois
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Favorite Quote:
"Accept everything about yourself. I mean everything. You are you, and that is the beginning and the end; No apologies, no regrets."

that is so adorable! I know the feeling I have a crush on a friend hes relly popular with the ladies so i end up thrid wheel adn watch in silent sufrence! XD Then im there to pick him up  when it all falls apart. anyway best story ive read today!

on Mar. 29 2010 at 7:33 pm
swimmergirlxo21 PLATINUM, Monroe, Connecticut
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really good! i can definatly relate to this!

on Mar. 29 2010 at 5:29 pm
rae-chul BRONZE, Silver City, New Mexico
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this is perfect! I love how you describe so honestly exactly how you are feeling! And the turning red stuff...ya. I blush a lot too. (also 17 never been kissed) I'm waiting for the perfect guy... :)

on Mar. 28 2010 at 3:32 pm
SarClark BRONZE, NC, Connecticut
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That's completly rong Sheylaaa, SJR 

That's so wrong it's not even funny, that makes me sick.


on Mar. 24 2010 at 5:09 pm
deardiary BRONZE, Saskatoon, Other
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Favorite Quote:
It is a truth universally acknowedged, that a single man in possession of a good fortune, must be in want of a wife. -Pride and Prejudice

omg what a loser! good for u for telling him tho! :)

on Mar. 24 2010 at 4:08 pm
Lovely:) SILVER, Clarendon, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
Laugh as much as you breath and love as long as you live.

This was amazing! And I no how you feel. But even tho I am the shy girl like u I finally told him and he is scared to even talk to me now, I mean like I said I think I kinda like you and he freaked even tho all his friends say that he likes me. Why do guys have to be so confusing! =D

full size said...
on Mar. 24 2010 at 9:18 am
Don't worry you will get your guy.He might not be the one for you.

on Mar. 23 2010 at 5:05 pm
monicalillian SILVER, Holladay, Utah
5 articles 1 photo 25 comments

Favorite Quote:
"forgive your enemies, nothing bugs them more."

now i did tell him and he was a complete jerk to me...he said nothing and when i begged him to say something, he said, "i like tacos." i dont get it, maybe i just see the signs all wrong, its just so stupid

on Mar. 23 2010 at 4:49 pm
Hmm, wow. Aha' i lost my vurginity and im only 13. Buhht jusst keep yhur head up(: Yu'll ghet ur kiss when itss tha rightt' time(:

on Mar. 23 2010 at 3:32 pm
sidneynicole BRONZE, McKinney, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
"When life knock you down to your knees, just know you are in a perfect postition to pray."

wow i knw how u feel

on Mar. 22 2010 at 10:52 pm
Nez.sner.snafala.boo, Hayward, California
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Favorite Quote:
&quot;the real lover is the man who can thrill you by kissing your forehead or smiling into your eyes or just staring into space.&quot;<br /> -marilyn monroe

i guess we all sometimes feel this way;wanting something so badly but never quite trying to get it.

i really like this story,keep up the good work!;D

on Mar. 22 2010 at 9:36 pm
deardiary BRONZE, Saskatoon, Other
3 articles 0 photos 65 comments

Favorite Quote:
It is a truth universally acknowedged, that a single man in possession of a good fortune, must be in want of a wife. -Pride and Prejudice

haha, thx!

on Mar. 22 2010 at 8:24 pm
monicalillian SILVER, Holladay, Utah
5 articles 1 photo 25 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;forgive your enemies, nothing bugs them more.&quot;

this is how i feel everyday and i cant make myself get up the courage to just tell him...how i wish i could...it would be so much weight off my shoulders

on Mar. 22 2010 at 8:06 pm
Anique_ThePoet GOLD, Indianapolis, Indiana
10 articles 33 photos 111 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;A writer should write with his eyes and painter paint with his ears.&quot; ~Gertrude Stein~

i feel you there. about to post somthing similar, though it be a while before its on here. i feel the same way with me and this guy so you're not alone. great job!

Riley141 GOLD said...
on Mar. 22 2010 at 6:55 pm
Riley141 GOLD, Yale, Michigan
13 articles 3 photos 145 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot; Always do right. This will gratifiy some people and astonish the rest.&quot; Mark Twain

This was reeeaalyy good. Keep writing.