Dear God,


These, in these letters are my feelings…Almost like my opinions on everything. I don’t know what some one would think if they read this. Truly though I’m afraid to find out. What do you think God, should I let someone read this? Should I let someone inside of me? If so send me some sort of sign that a person, living and breathing actually cares. Questions on this Universe are endless. I wonder what others feel. To ask them though, would have to mean I’d have to tell them mine.
I laughed today, not just for the heck of it but it was actual happy laughing, that’s progress right? I may be starting to come to happiness. You know though…should I fall into that trap again? Usually when I’m happy something goes wrong. I guess, I’m going to be sad sometimes anyway so being happy is worth the pain. I know one thing that’s not happiness though; boredom. Being bored is something valueless and obviously a waste of time. Teens can change being bored, and not allow it to happen. We can get up off our lazy butts and do something we like to do. If others don’t like to do anything….then it really sucks for them. Surely they should be able to find something to do at all times! Come on, teens…do me a favor and don’t spend every hour of your waking day sitting on your couch watching television, or sitting on your bed texting someone. Does that accomplish anything, I mean think about it, and wouldn’t you have wanted to be doing something else at that moment.

There is also a factor of obsession in our world, not just any obsession but a CRUSH. A daily thing we teenagers do. You can be sitting around thinking about the certain person all the time, its wasteful! If someone likes you they can come up and tell you it themselves. Otherwise, why not do something if you have a crush like, tell them how you feel? And if they don’t feel the same way that’s their loss. Everyone on earth is unique, and it’s good to take chances, risks? Try new things and get to know someone. Some people aren’t willing to take them. You get shot down, and you move on; that’s just how it goes… if its love, then it will take its own course. Anyways, I became closer to you today. I know that’s not much to say, but it’s true. I am starting to realize each day how you incorporate yourself into my life. You really are there aren’t you?
What I mainly learned about today was teamwork, and how little of it we teenagers have. We all want to think about what’s best for ourselves, never really what is best for others. I don’t get it. I guess we are all just jealous of each other. Though, each of us have a trait to be jealous of maybe, not even one but multiple traits. Looks is a main factor in jealousy. I mean, if you think about it, what is the one thing a day you spend countless hours doing even when you’re not trying? It’s making yourself look better. You may not be standing in front of a mirror, but you could also be pointing out your perfections, fixing something on your outfit, or combing your fingers through your hair. Does it really matter how you look? It matters more to me who I am. Sometimes I let looks get the best of me, thinking I’m fat, or comparing the outside view of me to others. Recently, I’ve started comparing myself spiritually, how strong my beliefs are, and how much closer my relationship is with you. Well, got to go…bye.
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Maddi















(p.s. god, I think I may possibly trust one person…you. But you already knew that right?)