Hello, I am 14 and for as long as I can remember, I have been overweight. It just keeps getting worse and worse and I keep gaining and gaining.

Sure, I know what you're probably thinking, big deal, if you really want to lose weight, you can, but if you are thinking that, you have never been in my situatuion.

I get thinking, okay, tomorrow you'll start, just eat less and excersize more. But, it's not that easy. I tell myselves those things and I try. But then, I eat and I am still hungry so, I tell myself one more, just one more, everything will be alright.

I know the way people look at me and say, someone needs a diet, or, how can she even walk. And then they see me eat and they think, is she even a human? I then I see skiny people and i just shut myself off.

I am no longer social and have a low self-esteem. I see people on tv and they are always like, oh I am so fat and my friends are like, oh I am so fat and I just want to choke them until they realize that they are lucky

People with eating disorders like anorexia and belimia make me very sick

It's like they don't even realize what it's like

I am also tired of being harrased by gym teachers and looked like a wild animal

I am proud to be fat, but I just hate how society reacts to me

Those who eat and eat are lucky when their metabolism kicks in, but I feel like I am the only one around who knows what it is like to be fat

And alright, I'll be honest, I am 14 and I weigh 239 pounds

I just wish someone would come out of the blue and be able to help me, but it is so hard

My family tried to help me and all I did was yell in their face and throw large tantrums

To all who read this, please understand just because we are large does not mean that we are not people and we have feelings and honestly to those with anorexia or belimia please, realize you probably are skinny and you're just hurting yourself, your friends and your family

imagine what it would be like to be me

and to all who read this (which I doubt it will be many) please don't hate me or judge me, it is hard to be obese and not know if you're going to wake up and have a heart attack or lose a limb or never be able to walk again

Thank you very much, for understanding and I hope you all will look at anyone in a diferent way