since the day you left Ive been in the dark clouds.i just sit and cry in the pitch black room because the thoughts of u flow back into the front of my brain.the thoughts of loosing you crushes my heavy felt heart.like a boulder falling on a car below.i close my eyes and wish you were here when i open them.to see your beautiful face.but some times i just don't want to open them because i know you wont be there for me to hold and say good bye for one last time.but I'm getting older and the thoughts of u get farther and father away from me so i go to the place you passed away to smell and hold the things u had your last breath with.then i go to my room and sit and fall asleep slowly and dream of the day i held and smelt you for the last time!!