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Losing myself

June 9, 2009
By KLD1992 GOLD, Bradford, Massachusetts
KLD1992 GOLD, Bradford, Massachusetts
10 articles 10 photos 30 comments

I was once happy and carefree

Hopeful and loving
Unafraid of being who I was because
No one told me who I should be


You
Were my best friend

The one I could trust

And believed in
We laugh at stupid jokes

We play make believe

And believed we stay

friend forever
Then all those joyful moments

Ended in a flash
For once during a conversation

You let me know that
I wasn’t who I thought I was
I was not the smart girl

I was led to believed

You made me see the

True I never saw before

In no uncertain terms

you declare that

I was dumb, ugly, and
Unworthy of being your friend
I tried to smile and laugh

Like it was all a joke
But their was not humor in you eyes

Just deadly intent

And without realizing it
I started a game I would never win

Trying to appease you
Be who you wanted me to be
The harder I try the more
I accepted every single lie

And suddenly I started to

Sink into a desperate hole

With no hope in sight

My sensitive soul lost

all its fight
And I lost more than my self


That day

My confidence crumbled
And my self-esteem took a stumped

I started to hate myself

thinking its
My fault that I’m never

good enough
And like a puppet master
you pulled my strings
Made me trip and fall for

the whole world to see

Everything I was

Everything I lost


Was gone


Why

Because I let you tell me

who I should be


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on Dec. 13 2010 at 7:53 pm
hiddenangelz211 DIAMOND, Haverhill, Massachusetts
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Favorite Quote:
Live Laugh Love ~Unknown
I'm selfish, impatient, a little insecure but if you can't handle me at my worst then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best ~Marilyn Monroe
Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today. ~James Dean

beautiful :D my lil sis is going through those exact feelings... but this is absolutely amazing ♥

KLD1992 GOLD said...
on Oct. 3 2009 at 6:30 pm
KLD1992 GOLD, Bradford, Massachusetts
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thanks i love it when someone can relate to my work

on Sep. 30 2009 at 5:50 pm
Writerzhand GOLD, Ball Ground, Georgia
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Favorite Quote:
I wanna carry a piece of who I was before so when I hit the wall, I REALLY hit the wall.

This, is something everyone can relate to. You've got some talent, This is excellent!

KLD1992 GOLD said...
on Sep. 24 2009 at 6:23 pm
KLD1992 GOLD, Bradford, Massachusetts
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thank you so much

on Sep. 21 2009 at 5:49 pm
SilverDawn GOLD, Burnaby, Other
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oh. my. gawsh. that is definately one of the best poems i've read in a long time. i really really like it, especially the turn when the line "And without realizing it/ I started a game I would not win" came. it was kinda unexpected but also classically perfect and the wording was pretty good too. love it. just love it! (:

on Aug. 8 2009 at 11:09 pm
LoveLikeWoe DIAMOND, LeSueur, MN, Minnesota
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Favorite Quote:
Whoever laughs first has the sickest mind.

wonderful. keep up the good writing.

on Jul. 11 2009 at 6:17 pm
i really like it i hated i when that happened 2 me thanx 4 commenting on my poem

on Jul. 7 2009 at 4:00 pm
camille_1441 PLATINUM, Westerville, Ohio
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thanks for the comment on Tears!

I like your poem I can relate to it

on Jun. 23 2009 at 4:46 am
xXsmileXx PLATINUM, St. Louis, Missouri
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Favorite Quote:
"Your dreams only become intangible when you stop reaching" ~me ;)

I know i can definitely relate to this. I went through this exactly in 5th and 6th grade. The poem is amazing. Awesome.

on Jun. 22 2009 at 4:30 am
ShernayB. DIAMOND, Southfield, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
"Some things will never change"---Tupac

Oh wow! This is amazing!! Very sad but well put together. I'm sure many people could relate to this. GREAT JOB!!