I thought I saw you
standing in the corner
of my eye, waiting
for me to speak.
But it wasn't you,
not like I remembered.
Your eyes,
they were so bright,
and I thought
something.
Something, I could not speak,
for, if I were wrong …
the cost would be too much.
And just when you opened your arms
so wide, my breath stopped.
I thought, Yes, yes, I accept the gift,
and then, as if she had heard my thought,
she leapt into your arms, your heart,
and I understood, suddenly.
To have watched it all
beneath me, happening so fast,
I could not envision a time
where you and I had ever truly loved.
I saw only myself
falling backward into memories,
into moments of longing where my hand and your hand reached
in the same direction,
colliding, sometimes,
but still holding on
to something.
But, as you opened yourself,
you had finally closed all of yourself,
at least to me,
and I thought I saw you
standing there,
but you had disappeared.