They tryna say that everyday u gotta be happy
I act normal when my day is always crappy
people tryna act like they care tryna say something
i act like i understand when their words mean nothing

everyday i wish that i could go outside
trying not to come after i jus cried
trying to find another way to get out
when i dont make it i just wanna shout

i cant do anything but do what they want me to do
trying to understand if every word they say are true
but i never understand even if i try
i think differently and now i just want to die

i dont want to come, to do this again
everyone ignores me even my own friends
i'll only feel normal when i'm listenin to rap
i understand what they say nd they aint crap

but when i think like this i remind myself
that im not the only one going thro this
tryna remind myself that i should let it go
even if the pain and sadness will come for more

but i know that i could fight them off me
when their off i could finally see
that something good will happen when u try
be born, live ur life nd then u jus die

so thats all i gotta do, im livin the life
thats why god gave me this life
still i dont understand even when i try
so maybe i'll understand before i die