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In The Beginning

April 1, 2014
By DanceOfBlades PLATINUM, Springfield, Virginia
DanceOfBlades PLATINUM, Springfield, Virginia
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Favorite Quote:
"Humankind cannot gain anything without first giving something in return. To obtain, something of equal value must be lost. That is alchemy's first Law of Equivalent Exchange."

In the beginning, there was nothing;
My name of light was real
And still there was everything—
Everything I needed to feel.

Laughter burst out of me,
Joy fluttered through my wings
I was like that tiny bird
Who always chirps and sings

Sure, I’m twisted now
But there’s much more to tell;
If anyone would care,
To release me from my spell.

The scar upon my wrist,
It wasn’t always there
Once upon a time
There was no despair.

I used to feel the mirth
Come shooting into my smile
But now it’s faded away
I haven’t seen it in a while.

It’s because of the thoughts
That plague my miserable head.
I wonder a bit too often
Just why I can’t be dead.

It’s because I am blind
To the blessings all around me
Because I refuse to believe
In the ‘love of humanity’.

The clouds have hidden my sunshine
Only the grays bleed into view
I’m afraid I’m out of luck
Because the light cannot break through.

Confined by a prison of diamonds
My virtue is lost evermore
Like a sunken chest of riches
That will never reach shore.

My anger is the culprit
The sorrow is my sin
Because they team to end me
I’m always lost within.

Everything sets me off
But in the end, grief is on top
Smothering all I used to be
Till no good remains to drop.

I’m sick of living like this
Paralyzed by myself
Waiting for my old tale
To be picked up off this lonely shelf.

I know that no one’s listening
That no one really cares;
Still, every day I hope
That someone’ll make my repairs.

I know them far too well
To expect them to give a damn
So I’ve set fire to the memory
Of those who’re just a sham.

Now I’m trying to live life solo;
It’s better than livin’ life broken
I can’t afford to fall apart
Because of words that aren’t spoken.

I swear I’m tellin’ the truth
When I say that I don’t need you
The darts to make my heart bleed,
Forget it, I bid them adieu.

Still, something doesn’t feel right
‘Cause the world just seems so wrong
To know that as this monster
I’ll never, ever belong.

Until I break the barrier
Until I shatter my cage
Forever in this madness
Alone my mind will rage.

And so I’m burnin’ it down
As I rise and rise again.
This time I swear I won’t falter
To my strength I say “Amen.”

The author's comments:
Tale of my past few years and what I need to do for myself.

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