I don't know anymore.

I don't know who I am, where I'm going.

I'm not sure of who I love and who I crave.

My heart beats inside me, keeping me alive, but it feels lost.

I can feel the emptiness crushing me- the loneliness breaking me like glass under pressure.

I don't know where to go next, only where my legs carry me.

My brain is disconnected from my body and heart. 

There is a wall that keeps me from life; I can feel it. 

I can feel the separation like a headache that won't go away, a numbness that makes me strain and fail.

I don't know anymore. 

I don't know who my friends are, who I can trust.

But I push them all away anyway. I distance them and turn my back to take the force of my own storm.

And I still don't know........