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Silence

March 11, 2019
By Lightskin_23 BRONZE, Chicago, Illinois
Lightskin_23 BRONZE, Chicago, Illinois
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Favorite Quote:
Never regret a day in your life. Good days give you happiness, bad days give you experience, worst days give lessons, and best days give memories.
~Unknown


~Silence~

 

Hmm...where do I even begin

Do I begin where my mother silenced and ridiculed me to protect “her man”

The man who hurt me! Abused me! Stole from Me!

Naw..how about I start where I was told to shut up or he was gonna tell mama on me

Forced to be quiet cause I was too innocent and afraid to realize it wasn't my fault

Manipulated and fooled at only six years old, truth be told.

Crazy how it was men I trusted, who were considered my family, who I said “I love you” to

Thought that if I kept the secret it would lower my mama’s worries, knowing what she been through

Silly me.

I remember one night when I was laying on the bottom bunk watching SpongeBob on the big box TV when he walked in and decided he wanted to take the innocence from me

He rubbed and gripped..and then things escalated.

And while I meditated on the idea of this being the father-figure I chose.

I felt guilty.

“Whisper, don't yell, “ says my mother herself

I do fear my past but I'm not afraid to admit it...why?

Cause it showed me how long love last and who was actually committed

And yes, I do struggle with the pain and the tears and the hurt

Only because I know it will never be the same

That fool had me questioning my worth!

I want to stand tall..no..I'm going to stand tall, be bold and yell loud.

Tell my story, the untold, how my purity was ripped out.

It sucks. It does. Cause now I'm forced to just sit up and wonder if he even thinks about the naive girl he slaughtered or if I was just another “little thang” he conquered

My past is already shown through my maturity

Even though I still wake up and fight the battle of insecurity

I understand this may be uncomfortable for some

Even though uncomfortable is an understatement

And I'm not doing this for no entertainment!

I'm doing this to show my worth..since I was birthed on this earth!

And I'm proud to be called Aaliyah, why?

Because it means blessing

And that's exactly what I'm going to be for those who might so hear me.

I feel like I'm stuck in an endless game of guessing

But one day I will be set free.

Even though I continue to go through the series of questions that I know won't get answered immediately.

I don't get it,

I don't understand,

Why me?

At such a young age?

Was it me?

Did I turn him on?

Did I lock myself in that cage?

NO! I was subjected to it.

But I will unlock the lock cause god knows I hate being stuck between a hard place and a rock

And you know what?

I will not be silenced!

Yell!

Don't you ever whisper!

That's how the truth will be stated

Because the 21st century shall now know that “shut up” is overrated


Thank you...


The author's comments:

I am an 8th grader from the state of Illinois. I was recently involved in a speech competition called Operation Push hosted by Jesse Jackson. The speech I did was Cicely Tyson's Monologue from Madea's Family Reunion. I love poetry and this piece, Silence, I wrote about is something very personal to me and my family. As a 14-year-old girl, I feel that at any age no one should be silenced or bottle up any emotion for anybody. I am aware of any negative reactions that can come with me putting this specific piece, but I'm also aware of the one person I might inspire. Don't stay quiet, let your voice be heard.


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tjruby2 said...
on Mar. 25 2019 at 7:04 pm
tjruby2, Sycamore, Illinois
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This made me cry. Being able to write about this shows your growth. It is a hard this to discuss. It was beautiful!!!!

teslamom4 said...
on Mar. 25 2019 at 5:46 pm
teslamom4, Forest Park, Illinois
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Priceless.. great job young lady, I just read something that effects many, many young girls. Very inspirational piece that clearly demonstrated strength and courage, this piece will move the hearts of many, it's more common and relatable than you could ever realize, some young girl or even boy needed to hear this, this is pain turned into passion and wisdom. Keep up the great work beautiful soul, youre a future leader so shine on!

Justicec02 said...
on Mar. 22 2019 at 7:12 pm
Justicec02, Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
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I love this so much, this was a very great piece!

Mraleigh said...
on Mar. 21 2019 at 11:52 pm
Mraleigh, Chicago, Illinois
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I’m so proud of you!!

on Mar. 21 2019 at 5:06 pm
NorthernClouds BRONZE, Blaine, Minnesota
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Favorite Quote:
Everything happens for a reason

This is so beautiful

on Mar. 21 2019 at 7:45 am
TobiasEliot DIAMOND, San Diego, California
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Favorite Quote:
"I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, in secret, between the shadow and the soul." -Pablo Neruda

I'm the one person you inspired.

on Mar. 21 2019 at 12:08 am
jacree17 BRONZE, Forest Park, Illinois
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Good Job best friend..... I know its hard to talk about a topic like that. But you did good!!

samuel_14567 said...
on Mar. 20 2019 at 4:06 pm
samuel_14567, Forest Park, Illinois
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This is a very Good Poem