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faith was always questionable

March 22, 2019
By mynameiselle GOLD, Pewaukee, Wisconsin
mynameiselle GOLD, Pewaukee, Wisconsin
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good people almost never lead

the kind of lives good people deserve

so naturally when my momma was born

god said oh we’re gonna have fun with this one


when my momma was born

god must’ve been having a piss-poor day

he gave my momma a piece of crap father

one who left her and wished he had never met her

one who never answered her letters

never wanted to meet her children

when he died i said good riddance

but when i looked into her eyes i cried at the hurt

and i said god why do you take everything away from her

even the ugly things

why can’t she have anything


when my momma was born

it was foreseen that she would have

a stepfather and a little baby half brother

except her kid brother would never abandon her

not like her stepdaddy did because of course

when god gave her hope it was false

he laughed and spit in her face and said

you thought he would be anything but selfish

anything but a bastard out to get you

he said stupid girl and i screamed

i said god please give her something

she deserves more than this


when my momma was born

it was laid out that she would marry

and they would be happy for quite a while

then god’s wicked smile flashed in her mind

as she watched her beloved crumble into alcoholism

as she watched him pour drink after drink after drink

but they already had three kids

she was already in too deep

and i said god why do you tie her down

why do you make her weep


when my momma was born

god said make her strong and test her strength

made her the loving mother of three kids

who can’t stand on their own

and gave her a job she hates with coworkers who love her

but also love to use and abuse her

gave her one deadbeat man after another

gave her depression and a sick mother

and i think it’s time to stop asking god why

because he doesn't seem to care


please understand why i am angry at god

why i do not love him and hope he doesn’t love me

you see when my momma was born

god said look at this hero

now watch me write you a tragedy



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