This empty sheet

This desolate face

Is known to me

As a disgrace

I can’t imagine

What my reflection would be

If I ever looked

Genuinely happy

But no

Thank god

I’m not blinded by a smile

This mirage

This facade

Is getting a denial

Whenever I’m smiling

I feel like I’m lying

Whenever I’m frowning

I feel like I am drowning

So I chose a blank sheet

To wear upon my face

My eyes have no shine

They are simply pools of grey

But will this ever be okay

Will I make it through the day

And then to my dismay

You make me smile

But it’s different

I’m not lying this time

And I am finally proud

Of this person staring back at me

When I look into the mirror

And I realize the smile is mine