As I lie here, drifting off

I’m not hurt, nor am I sad

But I lie here, apathetic, numb to it all

You sucked the blood out of my heart
like a vacuum

Quick and effortlessly

You took it from me, my innocence

And left me here questioning any ounce
of sanity I have left

I look at myself across the room in the mirror to the right of the window 

Who am I. Who is he. What do I do.

I’m drawing blanks, frustration taking over

I’m biting my nails, clenching my jaw

I’m so angry

I’m going to scream

I’m trapped

In this prison they call a bedroom

I’m out of air, I’m going to scream

The thoughts, the feelings all coming at once

My head is going to blow, I can’t breathe

Calm

My phone buzzes, I glance, your name flashes across the screen

Instant relief, like the way the air escapes
a tied up balloon 

But why, what is so special about you? 

That smile? The way you giggle when you say something funny? All the brain behind that pretty face?

Maybe it’s simpler then that, maybe it’s not meant to be complex

Maybe, maybe it’s you.