As I sit here and think I wonder how different our lives would be

Without the fights or the ending the calls in aggression

What if we did get that house in the small town 

Or have those set of twins

I look back at those memories and sigh

Those late night calls were full of laughter

But the days were full of somber

You said you'd never leave 

But I’m watching you walk out the door

I try to remember you as my guide,my wings to lift me up but you were my anchor and making me stay down when you were low too

Thank you for the memories and the smiles but curse you for not waiting for me

I ask myself “is this my fault for wanting time” “was the time up for me”

Maybe you had enough

Maybe I was too much 

I wish you well and I hope you live the life you want 

But how can you go on living when I was your world too

Don't you think of us?
Or am I just a memory in your past