Little green glitch with the ba-dum, ba-dum of my heart

Saying a-live, a-live, a-live

Cause my body’s still got me trying to survive

When I’m brain dead

Nothing but drip, drop in my head

Stormcloud raining down

Lightning flashing, but no thunder sounds

Pick a spot on the wall 

To watch the paint dry, scrawl

Another message with my nails 

Into blackboard, forgot the details

Forgot the fairytales, I only see scales

See the monsters under the bed in the mirror

See the demons in my head a little clearer

Unlike the world that I see through my eyes

In weather so cold, my breath fogs them with lies

Whispering incoherent lullabies under my breath

That lure me to sleep, to sleeping until death

But I’m not dead, not yet

Still see the green line go

Bud-um, bud-um, bu-dum

Like the bass pumping through my earbuds

Letting music make floods

Of the anger and love

Get lost in the blur of

Emotions, harmonies seem to feel

Pumping feeling into my veins, like it’s something to steal

Guess I gotta steal, cause I lost what was real

Now it’s just blank, and frankly

It hurts less to feel nothing

Then trying to heal

Still, I cry, I cry, I cry, but it’s not 

Loud, no sound, only dripping tears and snot

Cause the cat’s got my tongue, I don’t wanna chase it

Cause if I get out of bed then I have to face it

Eyeballs dig into my bedridden skin

But won’t see anything if they crawl in

Nothing but some vodka and some cloth left behind my iris

Anything but pain would surprise us 

I mean me, I’m sorry

I forget who I’m supposed to be

I also over apologize, over analyze

Don’t prioritize, just hypothesize

Until the thoughts in my brain form a knot

Until they’re caught, emotions shot like a bot

But I’m not

Still have a green line ticking at me

It’s my clock

Going bu-dum, bu-dum, bu-dum

Until it 

Stops