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Can We Go Back?

November 12, 2021
By Bumble_Bee PLATINUM, New Athens, Illinois
Bumble_Bee PLATINUM, New Athens, Illinois
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Favorite Quote:
"You will be found" -Dear Evan Hansen


Can we please just go back?

To when I was decently happy, but still with flashbacks. 


Can we please reverse?

I was happier back then, only, mentally I was doing worse. 


I miss dropping everything to watch a lore stream,

Now it feels like I have to force myself to watch streams, and the only recent lore is with Dream. 


I miss when Back to the Days, Please Don’t Make Me Choose, and Marionettes were played on repeat, 

Now, I’m expected to stop watching a creator based on one tweet. 


I remember when I’m In Love With an E-Girl first premiered, 

I was in the school gym waiting for the countdown when the video just suddenly appeared. 


I miss the feelings I felt while watching Wilbur’s revival live, 

To admit, the times I’ve watched it afterward is probably 5. 


When the first Lovejoy album came out, that’s all I listened to for days,

Then, on a bad day, I remember that all of this is probably a phase. 


My calendar is still up from January, days filled with upcoming stream events,

But, no matter how much I filled that calendar, it still said, Court 8:30.


I couldn’t run from my problems even if I tried, 

But at least I had Tales from the SMP by my side. 


While at camp, I even made a friend who liked these things too, 

We sang 4 AM, Ain’t No Cryin’, Honey, and Blue!


Maybe it’s best that these moments fade away,

Because back then I tried to flee the country; when asked why I didn’t even say


Maybe It’s because I don’t need those things to cope anymore, 

Maybe I only need those friends I made who love to talk about lore.


The author's comments:

This poem is about how I long for last year but also hate it; this poem helps me accept that I can long for the past while hating parts of it. (My friend picked out the image, and honestly? We rocking with it.)


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on Apr. 17 2023 at 10:11 pm
bugjuicepoetry ELITE, Fort Wayne, Indiana
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Favorite Quote:
"I was born very far from where I'm supposed to be. So, I guess I'm on my way home."

This poem is so frickin heart striking, i just love it so much
we can't ever really go back, can we

on Mar. 29 2022 at 3:51 pm
CrypticCorvid BRONZE, Personal Info, Connecticut
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I- how did that post twice?? What?

on Mar. 29 2022 at 3:50 pm
CrypticCorvid BRONZE, Personal Info, Connecticut
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@Bumble_Bee yeah, I have ao3!! (crypticrow) My docs are full of Dream SMP fics, but I haven't had the courage to post any yet- although I've been considering posting a theory/AU type-thing of what Ranboo's limbo may be like? Currently, the only fic I have posted is this crackfic of my irl friend being shipped with Hatsune Miku (context is forbidden in this household) that I haven't updated in a while, but plan to at some point,- and I'm glad we're friends now too! <3

on Mar. 29 2022 at 3:50 pm
CrypticCorvid BRONZE, Personal Info, Connecticut
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@Bumble_Bee yeah, I have ao3!! (crypticrow) My docs are full of Dream SMP fics, but I haven't had the courage to post any yet- although I've been considering posting a theory/AU type-thing of what Ranboo's limbo may be like? Currently, the only fic I have posted is this crackfic of my irl friend being shipped with Hatsune Miku (context is forbidden in this household) that I haven't updated in a while, but plan to at some point,- and I'm glad we're friends now too! <3

on Mar. 28 2022 at 3:13 pm
Bumble_Bee PLATINUM, New Athens, Illinois
38 articles 2 photos 123 comments

Favorite Quote:
"You will be found" -Dear Evan Hansen

@CrypticCorvid that’s so sweet!! Thank you! And awesome! If you use ao3, I do post my dream smp ones on there! (ItsBumbleBee) I’m glad we’re friends now! :DD

Oh my gosh, you watched Mean Girls 2? I watched a “documentary” type thing about it on YouTube, and it seemed horrendous. I can totally see the Walmart brand of Mean Girls, and I can’t believe they made that (it doesn’t serve the OG Mean Girls any justice at all).

on Mar. 24 2022 at 9:59 pm
CrypticCorvid BRONZE, Personal Info, Connecticut
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@Bumble_Bee On a completely different note, Mean Girls 2 was AWFUL?? I watched it out of sheer boredom over winter break, and that was an hour and a half or so of my life I'll never get back. It was like, the Walmart version of Mean Girls, if that makes any sense.

on Mar. 24 2022 at 9:44 pm
CrypticCorvid BRONZE, Personal Info, Connecticut
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@Bumble_Bee I'd be happy to be friends!! And no problem, your work is crazy good!!

on Mar. 23 2022 at 1:42 pm
Bumble_Bee PLATINUM, New Athens, Illinois
38 articles 2 photos 123 comments

Favorite Quote:
"You will be found" -Dear Evan Hansen

@CrypticCorvid thank you so much, I’m so glad you could understand my poem! I’m sorry about your friend group, but I can totally understand. Most of my friends grew out of DSMP as well. If you’d like to be friends we totally can! :DD As for the Regina George thing, always be a Janis! (I’d Rather Be Me! Or, well, yourself, but you get my idea!) Thank you so much again, and much love to you!!! <33 /p

on Mar. 22 2022 at 9:20 pm
CrypticCorvid BRONZE, Personal Info, Connecticut
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I- wow. I stumbled across your account this evening and this poem hit way too close to home. Amazing job- I got all of the references instantly and related to every word of it. I had a group of friends who I'd talk about lore with, but they grew out of Dream SMP after a while, and then I gained another friend who liked Dream SMP but was overly toxic and abandoned me for a girl who's basically my school's Regina George, and then I gained ANOTHER friend who likes Dream SMP but barely talks to me anymore for some reason, so I feel your pain completely! AMAZING work, dude!! Keep it up!

on Nov. 22 2021 at 9:15 am
Bumble_Bee PLATINUM, New Athens, Illinois
38 articles 2 photos 123 comments

Favorite Quote:
"You will be found" -Dear Evan Hansen

@Afra Thank you!! <33

on Nov. 22 2021 at 8:30 am
Bumble_Bee PLATINUM, New Athens, Illinois
38 articles 2 photos 123 comments

Favorite Quote:
"You will be found" -Dear Evan Hansen

@Moonbeams_and_Melodies Melody!!! I knew you'd love this poem! I figured you'd understand it more than most other people- I was so excited when I saw your comment!! Like always, your comments always make my whole week (maybe more). :DD Lots of love to you!! <333

on Nov. 19 2021 at 2:07 pm
Moonbeams_and_Melodies SILVER, Simpsonville, South Carolina
9 articles 0 photos 22 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Why is it that the words we write for ourselves are better than the words we write for others?" -Finding Forrester

Hi Bee <333
I love how I knew all of your references, and the duality of the people on the internet does really suck at times. But don't let that deter you! You are entitled to liking whatever the heck you want no matter what people say. <333

Afra ELITE said...
on Nov. 18 2021 at 12:13 pm
Afra ELITE, Kandy, Other
102 articles 7 photos 1819 comments

Favorite Quote:
"A writer must never be short of ideas."
-Gabriel Agreste- (Fictional character- Miraculous)

Hello @Bee...I checked out your profile...And you know what, I too love School of Rock...Who doesn't??? And your poem hit me really hard...I wanted to rewind life at times...Your poem was a mirror to me...I shall vote it...

Maybe you can check my poem out...
TeenInk.com/poetry/all/article/1143173/Marriage