The pain envelopes my body
It caresses my heart and punctures a gaping wound through it

rapidly like venom, it runs through my veins and infects my entire being,
Spreading throughout my entire soul
Soon, the pain fades away
I cannot feel anything anymore
I am numb.

Perhaps this is not ideal
When the pain fades away, so does my entire being
I am present, but in my mind, I am drifting away
Isolated, I become
Fantasy becomes reality
At least when I hurt, I know I am real
I know that I am not a perfect being
Without my pain, I am just an empty shell of a human
I would rather hurt, than feel no pain at all
Every single soul hurts.