Tired
Grieving
Hopelessly
Weaving

In and out
Of love and fear
Over and under
Smiles to tears

“I’m okay.”
“Really, I’m fine”

I laugh
At how hard that is
For me to believe
As I repeat it
A mantra
Over and over
Inside my head

An endless war
Of body and soul
Telling myself to stop
Move on
As if it were really
That simple a task

Teenage angst
Lovesick hearts
Nervous butterflies
Clumsy truths
Blurred vision
Unable to see
What lies before me

Dreaming
Seeking
Struggling
Weakling

Side to side
Of wrong and right
Up and down
Never to be found

“I’m over it.”
“I don’t care.”

Lying through my teeth
Getting away with murder
Mask tied, too tight to remove
Covered and clothed
Hiding and hurt
Running
Without turning back
One glance
Would be too hard
To realize how
Beautifully deadly...