I can't keep on
Living this lie
No matter how long
I have tried
To make the best
Out of what we've got
Is not an option anymore
What we had was not
Something that I had enjoyed
For the most part I felt annoyed
By all your antics and extremes
Your readiness to be occasionally mean
Our friendship was an obligation
No comfort in it
No communication
You stuffed me in your shadow
To see if you might feel
Better about what was real
You loved to fake and play pretend
But today this charade must end
Because when I'm with you I feel
Small
Irrelevant
Completely abhorred
Unworthy of your notice
Bored
Unaccepted
Ruthlessly ignored
Cast away
Pushed aside
I felt terrible
I wanted to cry
I felt like everything I know I am not
But despite everything, thanks a lot
For showing me that friendship is supposed to be
A two way street
A crossroad where two minds meet
And that what I had with you was just
And excuse to hide and retreat.