Nobody knows the pain
Nobody knows what I go though
The crying. Going to sleep. Everything.
If I cry what does It help?
If I smile it will be fake
I really want to stop but I just need somebody
That's going to be there with me or for me.
There is so much that I can say but how?
I really feel like it's my "dad". He really doesn't have a spot
To be called daddy,or father cause he really hasn't been there
And I try not to cry cause it's not worth it but
It hurts to talk about it to anybody and it gets deeper but I don't
Want to talk about it cause all I'm going to do is cry.
Everybody thinks my life is just so perfect and good or whatever you
Want to call it but if you knew my background story you'll see it's not.
It isn't really what you think it is.
I have all the clothes and the shoes or whatever
But in reality there is nobody.
I can't talk to anybody cause all they do is talk.
Talk to others, talk down to me, and make me feel like I'm wrong.
In other words, they tell everything they know and I can't talk to any grown ups
Is there someone that understands me?