I don't know who I am
Since the day
I found out I could act my own way
Since the day
I found out I had to take care of myself

I have someone
But I still don't know
who I am
what I have become

The decisions I have are all a blur
They come from the gut in my stomach
But my heart says otherwise
I feel I make others decide for me

I don't know what I want in life
I'm just so unsure of what I want
Cause of that
I have no motivation

I always wonder what if
What would I be doing
If I hadn't been with him
Does me make the decisions for me

What has this first love done to me
I do things I don't want to sometimes
I give up everything for him
But I still don't feel the happiness in me
Is that love

I wonder if its from my childhood
The way I grew up
with memories of bad things
with so little happiness

I feel that I am a person who is depressed
waiting for someone to realize
But I have been pretending
For so long, I have come good at it

I don't know what I want in life anymore
I'm so unsure of my life
It stresses me out
And makes me even more depressed

I don't know who I am....